Friday, October 23, 2009

In a pit and can't get out

I know I am not the only one that feels like this at times but it's just lasting to long.I have all these thoughts of dolls I'd like to do but thats as far as I get.I just sit and do nothing about it.I did do some much needed cleaning yesterday and felt good about that.I thought maybe with that done I'd get into my dolls today.I hate being like this.Went to the Dr a couple weeks ago and he put me on depression meds and it has helped to a point.I am not having the panic attacks like I was but still can't seem to get into my dolls.I live making dolls and creating so whats wrong???????????? I've already missed out on Halloween and if I don't soon get moving I miss Thanksgiving and Christmas.Sorry for going on like this but just had to get it off my chest and wondered if anyone else was going thru this.What did you find to help or does it just take time ??????????

Thursday, October 15, 2009

I am my own worest enemy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have procastanated halloween away and probablly will the rest of the holidays.I do this all the time and it makes me so mad at myself.I get all these ideas for dolls and I know they are good ones but thats as far as I get.I love looking at everyone's blogs and things.It even makes me feel like getting busy BUT when I get away from the puter I don't do anything.It would be so nice to have a friend that was into dolls or crafts but I don't.My mom and I did alot together but she's been gone since 93.I still misss her so much.

I have somethings started some finished that just need a little finishing touch.I thought maybe getting 1 out this evening and finishing it up would help me out of this awful pit I am in.